Little Secret Kept In Heart
I threw a little birthday party for my son today at 6:30pm. Actually it was just a reunion dinner with family and friends. My friends' children were coming as well, and this added joy among kids in the event. Photos can be viewed in my 'Mum & Kids In Wonderland' blog. Click here.
I went back to Chemor right after the dinner with hubby and kids. My MIL has been discharged from hospital since Wed. She is fine and she can walk in slow pace. She can even climb upstairs, not like during my first maternity after cesarean, I dared not even walk much, not to mention going to toilets and climbing up stairs. She can't eat most of the food after surgery, especially seafood which is her favourite. I don't see her going out for breakfast too that she always does. I ask what she's going to eat. MIL says she just takes bread and coffee at home. She hates bread. That's why she does not eat much in the morning.
I really feel that I'm not good to be a DIL to her. I can't cook what she likes to eat. I can't help much at home too since my both kids around will make me busy like hell, feeding, washing after poo-poo, carrying (my pampered son lor), cleaning and tidying the floor when they eat,.....I just know how to be responsible as a wife to hubby, I have to visit MIL while she was in hospital. If really she asks me to prepare some drinks for her, I'm sure I can do it. But she did not. Maybe she thinks that I knows nothing too. I'm just a 'useless' DIL to her. There is no close bond between us. I respect her, or maybe too respect till a bit 'scared' of her, in the sense of making her sad and angry.....I am who I am, and I'm not sure how my hubby feels about me.
I went back to Chemor right after the dinner with hubby and kids. My MIL has been discharged from hospital since Wed. She is fine and she can walk in slow pace. She can even climb upstairs, not like during my first maternity after cesarean, I dared not even walk much, not to mention going to toilets and climbing up stairs. She can't eat most of the food after surgery, especially seafood which is her favourite. I don't see her going out for breakfast too that she always does. I ask what she's going to eat. MIL says she just takes bread and coffee at home. She hates bread. That's why she does not eat much in the morning.
I really feel that I'm not good to be a DIL to her. I can't cook what she likes to eat. I can't help much at home too since my both kids around will make me busy like hell, feeding, washing after poo-poo, carrying (my pampered son lor), cleaning and tidying the floor when they eat,.....I just know how to be responsible as a wife to hubby, I have to visit MIL while she was in hospital. If really she asks me to prepare some drinks for her, I'm sure I can do it. But she did not. Maybe she thinks that I knows nothing too. I'm just a 'useless' DIL to her. There is no close bond between us. I respect her, or maybe too respect till a bit 'scared' of her, in the sense of making her sad and angry.....I am who I am, and I'm not sure how my hubby feels about me.
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